Do any of the words above describe how you feel, have felt or maybe how people see you? Your list may include; failure, foolish, not good enough, disappointment and anything else related.
There’s this part of the bible that I struggled to relate with for a while. I’ll quote it so that you catch my drift:
[No] for God selected (deliberately chose) what in the world is foolish to put the wise to shame, and what the world calls weak to put the strong to shame.
And God also selected (deliberately chose) what in the world is lowborn and insignificant and branded and treated with contempt, even the things that are nothing, that He might depose and bring to nothing the things that are (1 Corinthians 1:27-28, Amplified)
Growing up, I had enough confidence for a whole crowd, felt loved and accepted by the world. I knew I had brains, a personality that was enviable and everything else people needed (oh the pride I had!). So that part of the bible didn’t make sense; I mean, I had everything and God still used me… until recently.
Somehow things changed and now I’m more likely to struggle with feelings of insignificance, inadequacy, insecurity, inter alia. Tonight was one of those nights and everything was crumbling. An unfinished project that’s due tomorrow triggered it all. My current and past failures suddenly began mocking me. It got me doubting my capacity to even handle the things that await me.
Then I pick my bible and randomly open a page and find the verses above. God sure has a sense of humour and too much love.
You see, for those of us who’ve gone through things that you probably can’t utter to a soul or struggles that only you can understand; there’s hope.
God doesn’t look for those with perfect lives and everything figured out. He uses people like me and you. As messed up as we are with all the disappointment, failure, inadequacy and insecurity; He still wants us.
You’re in good hands; you’re on the right path. Your story is still unveiling and with time, all this will start making sense.
Lotsa love from me to you!